Hey Reader,
I’ve been doing conscious self-understanding work for at least the last 10 years. I say 10 years because before that, the work I was doing on myself was all about the physical, so I wouldn’t necessarily call it “conscious” self-understanding work.
Even when I first started practicing yoga almost 20 years ago, the focus was still on the physical. I was understanding how much of a warrior I was in the physical sense, but not in the spiritual or mental-emotional sense.
I have this natural tendency to turn away from myself when life gets crazy around me.
You might too…it’s completely another way of numbing or checking out so we don’t have to really feel anything. In times of stress or chaos, we revert back to our natural training, to what we can do on auto-pilot, and if you’re like me, that means you’re likely not really recognizing your feelings.
But instead you might be filling your calendar, working out, binging Netflix, eating mindlessly, cleaning, doing home projects, or any other way you avoid actually connecting with yourself.
So why am I telling you all this?
Because even after all this time of being on this self-understanding journey, I’ve only recently realized that I have this tendency to turn away from myself when life gets crazy around me. It’s not usually in the physical sense, but this year over the holidays it definitely was.
I’m sharing all about it on this in this week’s episode of the podcast.
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In all actuality, the things that truly make me feel safe and comfortable are connecting with myself on my yoga mat, with journaling, contemplation, meditation and inner child work, but when chaos starts to happen, my ego wants to jump to the rescue and do things like keep me busy, avoid confronting feelings on paper or in my mind, workout, and be social with others for the sake of being social rather than deeply connecting.
It’s a human thing to default to auto-pilot during times of stress, and it happens to everyone.
No matter how far you are on your self-work journey, you’ll likely have times when you want to turn away from yourself and maybe even others. And it’s in those times that you need to ask yourself, “What is it that I’m trying to avoid right now about myself?”.
It’s hard work, learning about yourself emotionally and beginning to heal past hurts. But I can tell you, it’s sooooo worth it.
Cheers,
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Cathy